可以说是My first concert，正如隔壁座位拿到吉他拨片和鼓棒的小女孩儿

极其放松和自由的快乐心情，只是悔不迭没有带相机（太过相信No photographing and videoing的警告）

不在意别人眼光的尖叫，摇摆和跟唱，反正整场也没有人认识我

last minute的决定，毫不后悔150块的票价

看着轻吟Give me reason, but don't give me choice. Coz I'll just make the same mistake的James Blunt就在眼前，而我在他脚下仰面狂拍。

You Are Beautiful的时候，全场不禁的起立齐唱，Encore时和隔壁小女孩的妈妈一起拼命跺着第一排座位前的钢板。

很想推荐一首没有认真听过的Goodbye Lover

 

Can you really have someone to say goodbye to, who really "understand your fear" and everything...

Just recalled April's word "It's all about time"

but how you know it's just the time, or maybe your question on this just shows that it's not the time?

Very tired, both physically & mentally, or maybe more the latter

Currently, everybody's major concern is the major disaster back there. What can I say? Every "major" thing in your life seems so tiny in front of the real impact on earth... Maybe it's a good buffer, for everyone to think of "major" stuff...

I need a good rest, to think of the question what if...

I turned on my lap-top at exactly 00:00, Mother's Day.

Long time never reach home so late bcoz elder ppl like me needs more rest, but it's kinda special today or I should say, yesterday. I don't know whether such kind of hanging out will happen again for 2 active participants are leaving soon...

If I'm not too old, this title has been used for my blog before, but this time it's not a usual "sentimental".

She, whom I've worked with & learnt from since the first day I started work, has resigned. I never expect this situation for being together during daytime, Q&A, chatting, eating, sharing, etc is sorta like a habit and seems will last forever. But, boom, forever is actually impossible... Of coz better opportunity is desired by everybody and I admit I also definitely will go for it for good. I can say I totally understand but I just can't help being kinda sad.

It's not hard to imagine that in future days I will still raise up my head & shout out some funny stuff to share but before shouting out I'll realise she's not sitting in front of me any more...

It's a bit complicated, I mean my feeling. Though we don't have much contact after working hours, as a deprived person who stays in office 10 hours a day, 6 days a week, I think I spent the longest time with her since I was in Singapore. It's just an easy math formula.

I can't say how deep relations we are in. But thinking of daily contacts, she's kinda like my "family" in Sg. already. Comparing to the days before I went to university, the meeting time with my mother everyday might even not be as long as with her...

Right, time is not a measurement for feeling. But given all the caring and concern through out these 2 & half years, I think I don't have to say anything more to express it.

Together with her leaving, he, a 5-month-later father, will also leave. A fun maker, a good working buddy, a brother whose futher kid's full month party I thought we all would attend also leaves for good...

I've experienced a lot of farewells after I graduated, much much more in these 2 & half years than all the years before. But this time, a double shot...

I know all the comforting words. Where there is a meet, there is an end. And an end is actually a new start for next session. And...

So, it's not necessary to comfort me with all these. Just feel my feelings and understand it.

I'm always prepared for everybody's leaving. This is an accurate comment on me. I am prepared, but I am also feeling bad.

Anyway, Bon Voyage in your brand new tour of life and wish good luck always be with you guys. And our this "Mother's Day Dinner" photo will be kept in my wallet for long...

Happy birthday to my another cute active sister and sorry for my unstable moody behavior after the dinner.

These are all I thought under my tired face tonight, or I should say again, last night...

我以为，追求理想的人，大约有三种：

第一种人，坚定的明白自己的理想，并不移。自始至终，奋力为之拼搏，成也好，败也好，最终留下的是对于自我的满足，或者虽未成却无憾的坦然。

第二种人，似乎知道自己的所求，可又有太多的枝杈。于是乎，“等我存够···我再去”，“等我做到···我再去”，“等我···我再去”。时间与精力在不觉间溜走，蓦然回头才发现，理想早已不再原地。诸多的借口成就了终身的遗憾。即便亡羊补牢，却也不是当初的滋味。

第三种人，被太多的纷繁遮蔽了双眼，以为这是理想，那是理想，不停往前冲。到头来忽然发觉这迷乱的外象，一个一个逐渐褪色；而原来错过的，放弃的道路两旁的风景，才真是心中所爱···

无论哪一种，都不得不为“理想”这个词埋单。差别无非得与失的比例。

终身的辛苦可怕；不停步地舍主求次更可怕；而最可怕的却是不知道什么是主次···

 

你为这个空洞的词付出了多少？

有得必有失

有失，必有得吗···？